I Miss You Dad

I wish I could have one last chance to have that:
one last evening car ride,
one last conversation,
one last driving lesson,
one last laugh,
one last man-hug,
one last pat on the back
one last lecture
one last handshake
one last opportunity to play music for you.

If only I could see you right here,
And not just through photos anymore.
If only I could hear your voice again,
Not from some video cam,
But Live.

If only I could hold your hand
Like I always used to as a boy
Than as a 19 year old
Desperately clinging on to the memory
Of the warmth of your voice.

Perhaps I would have done this or that differently.
And maybe perhaps this life would have been easier to deal with.